my face is leaking

As i finish the packing of our beautiful little home here in Gleed, WA. it gets more and more difficult to say goodbye to my home of the last 11 years. It is difficult to leave any place where you have put down roots, but it is even more difficult to go when it was not your choice. The pain is getting so real as the day approaches when i will drive away from my home on a journey to a new one. As i reflect on my kids dancing on our new fireplace made by the hands of a dear friend my face leaks for the memory will only be that, a memory. They will no longer be able to dance in their home made stage to Grandpas music on the stone fireplace that Don made. I am sure they will find a new stage, but this will be their first.

They will no longer be able to chase eachother around the island in our new kitchen that we just put together for them or around the laundry room hallway living room track. They will find a new track to run around, but this is their first and for us one of our fondest memories and favorite things to watch them do.

They will no longer be able to grow weeds in their weed garden at the top of our hill in the backyard. They will find new places to play, but this is their first.

they will no longer be able to go to Ray and Pam's for dinner and a swim in the summer. We will meet new friends and new families, but these were the first. And you are all so dear to us. We will miss you more than i will ever be able to express verbally.

All these things and so many more are the memories that are so painful to see go. God this hurts more than i thought it would and I don't like it. My face keeps leaking.

I know you didn't want to leave heaven where all your comforts were to come to this awful place to redeem us so you know what I am feeling. Help us through it as only you can.